Perginya.....
Entah apa yang mesti ia kerjakan sekarang, sepertinya ia sudah mencapai puncak kebosanan dengan hidupnya. Orang terdekatnya yang sangat ia cintai dan ia sayangi telah pergi menjauh dari kehidupan rumah tangga yang sudah sempat terbina. Dua orang anak yang masih bersama membantu memampukan ia untuk tetap bertahan.
Bersama dua orang anak yang telah ditinggalkan oleh kekasih tercintanya ia mesti tetap menjalankan roda kehidupan. Memang dalam benaknya terlintas suatu pikiran untuk mempersalahkan seseorang yang telah membawa kabur suaminya. Ia masih belum bisa juga melihat kemungkinan dimana kesalahannya hingga mengakibatkan, suaminya pergi meninggalkan dirinya.
Sekarang tampak baginya kehidupan ini sebagai suatu perjuangan untuk tetap berusaha berjalan di suatu jalan setapak yang tak berujung. Ia melihat masa depan seakan bagai kabut hitam layaknya. Ia bagaikan memasuki suatu hutan rimba berkabut dan sangat asing baginya, ia tidak mampu lagi mengenal secara dalam setiap sudut kehidupan yang tengah dia jalani.
“Mimpikah aku?”, tanya perempuan itu pada dirinya sendiri.
Enam tahun kebahagian hidup bersama Mas Richo bagaikan suatu mimpi. Sepertinya baru kemarin ia merasakan cintanya, tetapi sekarang cintanya tak bersisa sedikitpun, bahkan telah berakar menjadi suatu kebencian yang semakin kuat.
Di tengah kehilanganya ia tetap mencari apa saja yang mampu membuat ia tetap bertahan.. Ia telah menemukan kebencian yang sangat kuat yang menjadikan ia begitu kuat untuk tetap bertahan:
“Aku mesti kuat”, bisik kata hatinya sambil menahan napas dalam-dalam.
Ia tatap kedua putrinya dengan perasaan pilu bagai tersayat sembilu. Ia teringat saat anak-anak masih bersama-sama dengan ayah mereka. Perempuan itu tidak mengira kepergian suaminya telah merampas paksa kebahagian itu. Dan menyisahkan kepiluan yang membuahkan kebencian yang sangat dalam di hati perempuan itu.
Ayah mereka kini telah pergi dengan kekasih barunya. Terdengar kabar bahwa ayah mereka telah menikah lagi tanpa sepengetahuan perempuan itu. Demi mempertahankan utuhnya sebuah keluarga ia terus mencari tahu keberadaan suaminya lewat teman-temannya. Akhirnya kepastianya didapatkannya lewat kata-kata Mas Richo sendiri bahwa ia telah menikah lagi. Richo Utomo adalah nama dari mantan suami perempuan itu. Dan ia pun harus jujur berkata bahwa ia terluka, sakit hati,
“Fuck you, Cho“, geram batin perempuan itu terucap juga melalui bibir mungilnya yang tipis bergincu merah muda .
Dalam hidup memang ada hal-hal yang tidak mesti bisa dijelaskan dengan sejelas-jelasnya. Begitulah dengan keadaan perempuan itu. Pertanyaan- pertanyaan yang pernah timbul didalam hatinya, tidak semuanya bisa terjawab dengan mudah olehnya.
“Mengapa mas Richo mesti meninggalkan aku? Meninggalkan anak-anak yang manis-manis ini?. Mengapa dia tidak pernah mengatakan apa kekurangan dari ku?” perempuan itu terus berkeluh kesah dengan dirinya. Sepertinya ia tidak pantas untuk itu
Tiga bulan berlalu seiring dengan kepergian kekasih tercintanya, Ia ternyata masih mampu tetap bertahan. Nisa, anak gadisnya yang berumur 11 tahun menjadi penghubung antara mereka. Mas Richo tetap mensuplai uang belanja bulanan untuk mereka, untuk biaya sekolah dan kehidupan sehari-hari mereka. Namun itu hanya berlangsung enam bulan saja. Setelahnya ia, Mawar nama perempuan itu baru merasakan benar-benar kepergian suaminya tanpa pernah lagi berhubungan baik dengan ia maupun dengan anak-anaknya
Hari berlalu bulan berjalan hingga sampai genap bulan menuju tahun, Mawar, bukanlah perempuan yang bisa hidup dari kenangan masa lalu, ia lebih realistis dalam melihat dunia. Namun, Ia tetap memupuk kebencian sebagai pertahanan hidupnya. Pohon kebencian pada seseorang yang telah meninggalkannya sudah mengakar hingga kelubuk hati yang dalam. Ia adalah mawar yang sekarang adanya. Apapun adanya, ia mesti menghidupkan dirinya serta kedua anak-anaknya. Ia titipkan Anisah dan Aisah di kampung di rumah ibundanya. Dan setiap bulan ia menitipkan kebutuhan sehari-hari ke ibundanya di kampung.
Mawar jauh dari jelek, badannya seksi, tinggi semampai, rambut agak panjang, ia disukai banyak laki-laki. Nama panjangnya adalah Mawarti. Dan sepertinya ia sangat dikenal di tempat dimana ia tinggal. Ia mengontrak di sebuah rumah petak di suatu gang sempit yang kumuh. Ia tinggal di tempat yang padat penduduknya. Hampir setiap kali ia bisa mendapati orang-orang yang berpapasan dengannya menyapanya dengan sopan. Mawarpun mengerti sapaan yang demikian cuma basa basi saja untuknya, Ia cukup tahu dengan orang-orang tersebut, sepertinya mereka memperolok-olok hidupnya. Mawar pun tidak mau ambil pusing dengan perasaannya. Perasaannya sudah mati sejak kepergian orang yang dicintainnya. Mawar mengakui bahwa bulan-bulan pertama ketika Richo Utomo meninggalkannya sangat berat. Namun seiring waktu berjalan ia semakin kuat untuk membencinya. Nampaknya tabungan kebenciannya semakin melimpah Ia tinggal membelanjakan untuk kekayaan dirinya. Dan ia sadar serta mengakui bahwa doa-doanya sangat buruk bagi mantan suaminya itu. Ia sangat membencinya lebih dari apa dan siapapun.
Sabtu, 20 Desember 2008
The Song to show my feeling
"You’ll See"
Madonna
You think that I can’t live without your love
You’ll see,
You think I can’t go on another day.
You think I have nothing
Without you by my side,
You’ll see
Somehow, some way
You think that I can never laugh again
You’ll see,
You think that you destroyed my faith in love.
You think after all you’ve done
I’ll never find my way back home,
You’ll see
Somehow, someday
Chorus:
All by myself
I don’t need anyone at all
I know I’ll survive
I know I’ll stay alive,
All on my own
I don’t need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You’ll see
You think that you are strong, but you are weak
You’ll see,
It takes more strength to cry, admit defeat.
I have truth on my side,
You only have deceit
You’ll see, somehow, someday
Chorus2:
All by myself
I don’t need anyone at all
I know I’ll survive
I know I’ll stay alive,
I’ll stand on my own
I wont need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You’ll see
You’ll see, you’ll see
You’ll see, mmmm, mmmm
Madonna
You think that I can’t live without your love
You’ll see,
You think I can’t go on another day.
You think I have nothing
Without you by my side,
You’ll see
Somehow, some way
You think that I can never laugh again
You’ll see,
You think that you destroyed my faith in love.
You think after all you’ve done
I’ll never find my way back home,
You’ll see
Somehow, someday
Chorus:
All by myself
I don’t need anyone at all
I know I’ll survive
I know I’ll stay alive,
All on my own
I don’t need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You’ll see
You think that you are strong, but you are weak
You’ll see,
It takes more strength to cry, admit defeat.
I have truth on my side,
You only have deceit
You’ll see, somehow, someday
Chorus2:
All by myself
I don’t need anyone at all
I know I’ll survive
I know I’ll stay alive,
I’ll stand on my own
I wont need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You’ll see
You’ll see, you’ll see
You’ll see, mmmm, mmmm
Jumat, 19 Desember 2008
The Song to show my feeling
Welcome To My Life
oleh: Simple Plan
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just dont belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room with the radio on turned up so loud no one hears you screamin
No you don't know what's it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
Well you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more before you're life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,
When deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
no you don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
Well you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be OK
Everyone always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
Well you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
oleh: Simple Plan
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just dont belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room with the radio on turned up so loud no one hears you screamin
No you don't know what's it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
Well you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more before you're life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,
When deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
no you don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
Well you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be OK
Everyone always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
Well you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
The Song
thank you
oleh: Simple Plan
I thought that I could always count on you,
I thought that nothing could come between us two.
We said as long as we would stick together,
We'd be alright,
We'd be ok.
But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I'll never be the same again.
So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back
Yeah!
I wonder why it always has to hurt,
For every lesson that you have to learn.
I won't forget what you did to me,
How you showed me things,
I wish I'd never seen.
But I was stupid,
And you broke me down,
I'll never be the same again.
So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship, the good times we had you can have them back
When the tables turn again,
You'll remember me my friend,
You'll be wishing I was there for you.
I'll be the one you'll miss the most,
But you'll only find my ghost.
As time goes by,
You'll wonder why,
You're all alone.
So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back.
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back
oleh: Simple Plan
I thought that I could always count on you,
I thought that nothing could come between us two.
We said as long as we would stick together,
We'd be alright,
We'd be ok.
But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I'll never be the same again.
So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back
Yeah!
I wonder why it always has to hurt,
For every lesson that you have to learn.
I won't forget what you did to me,
How you showed me things,
I wish I'd never seen.
But I was stupid,
And you broke me down,
I'll never be the same again.
So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship, the good times we had you can have them back
When the tables turn again,
You'll remember me my friend,
You'll be wishing I was there for you.
I'll be the one you'll miss the most,
But you'll only find my ghost.
As time goes by,
You'll wonder why,
You're all alone.
So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back.
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back
The Poem
Kusadar sekarang
dengan kata-kataku dahulu
bahwa
Kau tidak asing bagiku
kau adalah seorang yang telah meninggalkan bekas
jejak langkah hidupmu di diriku,
Kau adalah luka-luka batinku
Kau adalah rasa sakitku
kau adalah perihnya jiwa yang kering
serta kehampaanku................
dengan kata-kataku dahulu
bahwa
Kau tidak asing bagiku
kau adalah seorang yang telah meninggalkan bekas
jejak langkah hidupmu di diriku,
Kau adalah luka-luka batinku
Kau adalah rasa sakitku
kau adalah perihnya jiwa yang kering
serta kehampaanku................
The Song
D’MASIVE
Di Antara Kalian
ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian
aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
Ku akui ku sangat sangat mengharapkanmu
tapi kini ku sadar ku tak akan bisa
aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
reff:
lupakan aku kembali padanya
aku bukan siapa siapa untukmu
ku cintaimu tak berarti bahwa
ku harus memilikimu slamanya
aaa…aaa…
ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian
aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
repeat
reff
Di Antara Kalian
ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian
aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
Ku akui ku sangat sangat mengharapkanmu
tapi kini ku sadar ku tak akan bisa
aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
reff:
lupakan aku kembali padanya
aku bukan siapa siapa untukmu
ku cintaimu tak berarti bahwa
ku harus memilikimu slamanya
aaa…aaa…
ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian
aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
repeat
reff
The Song
Kenangan Terindah
Samsons
intro: E C#m A E
E
Aku yang lemah tanpamu
C#m A E
Aku yang rentan karena cinta yang telah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku
E
Selama mata terbuka
C#m
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
A E
Selama itupun aku mampu untuk mengenangmu
F#m C#m
Darimu kutemukan hidupku
F#m C#m
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati
A F# B7
Yeah hu ... hu ... hu ...
E B
Reff * : Bila yang tertulis untukku
C#m G#m
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
A E
’Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
F#m B
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
E B
Namun tak ‘kan mudah bagiku
C#m G#m
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
A E
Yang t’lah terukir abadi
F#m B C#m B E
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah …
Interlude : C#m B A A#m B C#m B A B
E B
Reff ** : Bila yang tertulis untukku
C#m G#m
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
A E
’Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
F#m B
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
E B
Namun tak ‘kan mudah bagiku
C#m G#m
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
A E
Yang t’lah terukir abadi
F#m B E
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah …
Back to: Reff **
Samsons
intro: E C#m A E
E
Aku yang lemah tanpamu
C#m A E
Aku yang rentan karena cinta yang telah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku
E
Selama mata terbuka
C#m
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
A E
Selama itupun aku mampu untuk mengenangmu
F#m C#m
Darimu kutemukan hidupku
F#m C#m
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati
A F# B7
Yeah hu ... hu ... hu ...
E B
Reff * : Bila yang tertulis untukku
C#m G#m
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
A E
’Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
F#m B
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
E B
Namun tak ‘kan mudah bagiku
C#m G#m
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
A E
Yang t’lah terukir abadi
F#m B C#m B E
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah …
Interlude : C#m B A A#m B C#m B A B
E B
Reff ** : Bila yang tertulis untukku
C#m G#m
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
A E
’Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
F#m B
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
E B
Namun tak ‘kan mudah bagiku
C#m G#m
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
A E
Yang t’lah terukir abadi
F#m B E
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah …
Back to: Reff **
Selasa, 16 Desember 2008
Here are my wise words
Here are my wise words
Say not, ‘I have found the truth,’ but rather, ‘I have found a truth.’
Kahlil Gibran
If you can’t stand the heat, get out of the kitchen.
Harry S Truman
What is the sound of one hand clapping
Confucius
The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.
Buddha
Work is love made visible. And if you cannot work with love but only with distaste, it is better that you should leave your work and sit at the gate of the temple and take alms of those who work with joy.
Kahlil Gibran
The only way to have a friend is to be one.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
If you have a true friend, you have more than your share.
Thomas Fuller
True happiness comes from the joy of deeds well done, the zest of creating things new.
Antoine De Saint-Exupery
When you jump for joy, beware that no one moves the ground from beneath your feet.
Stanislaw Lec
Say not, ‘I have found the truth,’ but rather, ‘I have found a truth.’
Kahlil Gibran
If you can’t stand the heat, get out of the kitchen.
Harry S Truman
What is the sound of one hand clapping
Confucius
The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.
Buddha
Work is love made visible. And if you cannot work with love but only with distaste, it is better that you should leave your work and sit at the gate of the temple and take alms of those who work with joy.
Kahlil Gibran
The only way to have a friend is to be one.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
If you have a true friend, you have more than your share.
Thomas Fuller
True happiness comes from the joy of deeds well done, the zest of creating things new.
Antoine De Saint-Exupery
When you jump for joy, beware that no one moves the ground from beneath your feet.
Stanislaw Lec
Sabtu, 13 Desember 2008
Rabu, 10 Desember 2008
Selasa, 09 Desember 2008
The Song By Cokelat " Karma"
Karma - Cokelat
sekian lama kita bersama
ternyata kau juga sama saja
kau kira kupercaya semua
segala tipu daya oh percuma
kau buat sempurna awalnya
berakhir bencana
reff: selamat tinggal sayang
bila umurku panjang
kelak ku kan datang kubuktikan
saat kubalas dan kau jelang
jangan menangis sayang
kuingin kau rasakan
pahitnya semua sia-sia
memang kau pantas dapatkan
akhirnya usai sudah semua
kudapat tertawa bahagia
selalu tampak indah awalnya
berakhir bencana
repeat reff
kau buat sempurna awalnya
berakhir bencana
repeat reff
sekian lama kita bersama
ternyata kau juga sama saja
kau kira kupercaya semua
segala tipu daya oh percuma
kau buat sempurna awalnya
berakhir bencana
reff: selamat tinggal sayang
bila umurku panjang
kelak ku kan datang kubuktikan
saat kubalas dan kau jelang
jangan menangis sayang
kuingin kau rasakan
pahitnya semua sia-sia
memang kau pantas dapatkan
akhirnya usai sudah semua
kudapat tertawa bahagia
selalu tampak indah awalnya
berakhir bencana
repeat reff
kau buat sempurna awalnya
berakhir bencana
repeat reff
Song by : Cokelat - Luka Lama
kurintangkan hati
kubalut luka lama saat kau pergi
kutegarkan diri
walau bayangmu hadir di setiap mimpi
oh haruskah
kubenamkan diri meratapi
tenggelam sesali yang terjadi
tersiksa bersama hampa asa
reff: kini kuhanya ingin lupakan semua
mengenangmu menyesakkan jiwa
kan kuhapus air mata
hingga kudapat sembuhkan luka
kucoba hadapi
walau pahit terasa tak terobati
harus kulewati
seakan semua tiada pernah terjadi
repeat *
repeat reff
semoga kelak lupakan semua
mengenangmu menyesakkan jiwa
kan kuhapus air mata
hingga kudapat sembuhkan luka
Sabtu, 06 Desember 2008
I've got my words
Now that the war is through with me
I'm waking up, I cannot see
That there is not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now (Metallica)
At first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
just thinking how you'd done me wrong
and i grew strong
I leearned how to get along
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
and you see me
with somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
I've got all my live to live
I've got all my love to give (Cake)
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door (Dido)
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